This is how it feels to take a fall
drinking; Sparkling Ice, Lemon Lime flavor
eating; M&M cookies 
currently reading; Early Modern Spain, A Documentary History by Jon Cowans (for my History of the Spanish Empire class)
listening to; “Icarus” by Bastille
watching; episode five of season three of Game of Thrones
playing; a lot of Bubble Shooter lately
Thanks, everyone, for the comments on the last blog post. I ended up having a really fun time, and we had some pretty fun adventures. And in Midwest/Southern United States, of all places—who’da thunk?
Not much has really happened on my end. Um, my depression was back for a while. It’s not really something I’ve talked about on my blog before, but my counselor said writing about it would help. I don’t keep a journal, but I do have this blog. So. Anyway, it has been a steady downward spiral since early March. Stress and health issues were starting to eat at me. It reached its peak about two weeks ago, and it got to the point where I could barely function or hold a conversation. I gave in and agreed to increasing my meds. I didn’t want to, and I resisted. There’s something about having to rely on a little white pill for happiness that bugs me, and I have a fear I’ll be on them the rest of my life. But my mom was getting scared, so I did it for her. I’m happy to announce the increase in meds has worked, and I’ve been feeling much better the past few days. Well enough to write this post, at least. 
Last week was pure hell for me, schoolwork-wise. It felt like my professors all gathered around and decided to assign everything between April 23rd and the 25th. For Anthro 311 (Human Evolution), I had a really hard essay exam I had to study for (and I don’t think I did too well, oops) and a five-page paper in which I reviewed an article. For Anthro 325 (Culture and Language) I had a seven-page research paper due. For History 317 (Modern Japan), I had another seven-pager to write. On top of all that, I also had to prepare a presentation for the Undergrad Research Symposium that was on the 26th. And on top of THAT, my depression flushed my productivity down the metaphorical good-grades drain.
Barske, my professor for History 317, gave me an extension. I’m not religious, but the Good Lord (or whoever is out there) has made a saint of a woman, and He has blessed me by making her my professor. I explained to her how hectic my week was, and she just nodded and gave me until this Thursday to write it. The weight off of my shoulders, let me tell you. I nearly cried in relief.
My award for surviving the Week of Hell, as I have officially named it, was seeing The Lion King on Broadway (well, it was in Appleton, Wisconsin) the 26th. The Lion King is a favorite of mine, and it has been since I was a toddler. It’s been a dream of mine to see the musical, and I went last Friday. All I can say is that is was gorgeous. I cried no less than five times from the beauty of it (it was overwhelming), and once because Mufasa died.
Other good things: I was accepted to work at the Tutoring-Learning Center on campus. My professor recommended me, and after I take a class next semester, I will be a full-fledged tutor in the Writing Lab. I’ll help students with their writing, and I’ll most likely be specializing in working on research papers. It’s quite an honor, and it looks FANTASTIC on the resume and grad school application. I was also elected the Vice President for both the College Democrats and the History Club here. I didn’t want to be VP for the Dems, but I stumbled into it because they didn’t have anyone running and I happened to show up to the meeting. 
But anything that will get me involved and less likely to wallow in my own self pity is a good thing, right?
I’m already brainstorming ideas on what I want to do with my next layout. I’m genuinely not sure, but I am starting to look at color schemes and think of ways to make it different. This summer, I’ll be much more active on CCR. Even tonight, for the first time all year, I actually went to other people’s blogs (who hadn’t first commented here) and posted things! I know, right? I want to get traffic going here, and will hopefully have the time to put a lot of effort into making new resources for y’all. I won’t be posting again till June. Finals are coming up, and it looks like they might actually be really f***ing difficult.
How has everyone else been this past month?
Posted April 30, 2013.
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